It’s been a while… I can’t believe we’re already into May of this year! Didn’t we all just take down our Christmas trees?! Life, please slow down!!
Last year, my daughter, Haley blogged about her struggles with weight. She was very honest (and courageous!) to open up about this lifelong battle. If you missed that post, you can read it here. It was August of last year when she wrote her original post, and she blogged 3 or 4 times between August and October, I believe. A few weeks ago, I asked her to blog again because she is DOING AMAZING!!! It’s not been an easy or short road, actually quite the contrary. But I’m seeing a renewal in her of mind, heart, steadfastness, and dedication right before my very eyes! There’s something about her commitment to health that is different this time, and I wanted her to share with us. I know many of us fight this battle, so it’s nice to know we’re not on the journey alone.
As of the end of April, I have lost 40 pounds! I am finally able to say that I have less than 100lbs. to lose and this feels fantastic! I know I still have a major road ahead of me, but I am so proud of what I have accomplished so far.
Though the weight hasn’t come off as fast as I would like, I haven’t stopped. I got through this past holiday season without gaining one pound which is something I don’t think I have ever done. EVER.
I shared with you that this time is different. It feels different. I have a different attitude. I have a different mindset. I want this more than I have ever wanted it in my life. Now hear me say: this is not easy! I don’t wake up everyday and think “I can’t wait for this kale egg white omelet with a cold glass of green juice.” Not only do I not think that, I don’t live like that. I am realistic in my expectations for myself and I know that every day counts. I have bad days. I have cheat meals. I have days where I just do not want to eat another salad and do not want to work out. What makes this time different, though, is that I make myself do it anyway. I am more often finding myself giving up what I want now for what I want most. And I what I want most is to be healthy! It’s becoming more and more of a reality that what I want most is within my reach and can possibly happen in 2014. I’m not putting the pressure on myself to make a hard deadline and I know this will take a serious amount of work, but it IS possible. And that is crazy!!
There are two things I consider my biggest difference makers in my weight loss journey this time around.
1. The first is accountability. My parents are holding me accountable. I talk to them about how I’m doing. My mom knows exactly what I weigh and I report back to her with my updates. In a moment of pure honesty, this was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done. My mom and I decided that I was going to weigh in front of her on the first of every month and trust me when I say, I was NOT at all excited about it. For anyone who has ever struggled with their weight, you know the fear, shame and guilt that accompany this level of vulnerability. It is never fun. It is never easy. But it has been the difference maker for me. There is no where to hide on the scale and numbers don’t lie. I encourage everyone who is struggling with losing weight to find someone in your life who you trust and ask them to hold you accountable. Show them how badly you want to change your life by showing them the most vulnerable side of yourself. Without accountability, you will not get there. I know I will not get there. As with any battle, addiction, struggle, you cannot and will not do it alone.
2. The second thing that’s been a game changer for me is my mentality. I constantly surround myself with inspiration and motivation. I live and breathe weight loss. I am in constant prayer and spend time everyday in the Word. In my bible study, it’s what I’m trying to break free from. I have inspirational quotes and bible verses posted around my room and written on my bathroom mirror. I follow fitness and health inspiration accounts on Twitter and Instagram. I read books and blogs by people who have lost weight or are currently losing weight. In my family, we are constantly sending each other articles about health, fitness and weight loss. It sounds crazy, obsessive even. But I’m not obsessed, I’m focused and determined.
I am getting to a place where I actually want to know more about what true (and biblical) health looks like. I am educating myself about what I’m eating. When you start to realize how many calories are in things, what true portion sizes look like, and what’s actually in the food we’re blindly eating, you realize just how far off base you are. I have lots more I want to say about Nutrition & Exercise, but I’ll stop here for now. Just know that if you’re struggling with your weight, you REALLY CAN win this battle! I promise!
Believe in yourself! And believe that Jesus will give you the ability to do it!
As you can see, I’m super proud of her!!!! She’s actually inspired me!! For the last 3 months, she’s gotten up at 4:15, 2-3 times a week to do a 5 a.m. Orangetheory class! But as she mentioned, she’ll get into more of that in the next few blogs….that I’m gonna make sure she writes! ha!
I love this scripture, and recite it often to myself:
For I hold you by your right hand— I, the Lord your God. And I say to you, ‘Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you.’ -Isaiah 41:13