So, it’s 2008 . . . how are you doing? Me? Not so well. It’s interesting that when I hadn’t yet put out the “30 day challenge” for journaling, I was fairly consistent. Now that I’ve “encouraged” (and I use the term loosely) everyone, I’ve journaled perhaps 3 times since the beginning of the year. At this point, I can sit and list the various reasons why this would happen . . . not disciplined, made a resolution and now I’m under attack (that’s a lot of religious folks favorite one, huh?), too busy with work, kids and life.
Here’s the truth: I’ve not prioritized it. I’ve allowed basketball games, bike ride meetings, events, manager’s meetings, relatives visiting, sickness and everything else to take it’s place. It’s as if God phones me first thing in the morning, I answer and say, “God, hold on one second, let me jump in the shower – 10 minutes tops! Hey God, you still there? Give me 15 minutes to put my make-up on, and then I’ll have 5 to sit, read, and jot a few things down. Hey God, I’m so sorry, I have to check email really fast, there’s one email I have to respond to or this listener will think I don’t care. It’s all about being Jesus to them, right God?”
Fast forward to the end of the day. “God, I’m gonna put my jammies on, climb in bed and spend some time with you. OK, now I’m all comfy. God, it’s been a long day, I’m so tired. First thing in the morning, K? I’m sorry, God. Thank you for still loving me. Good-nite.”
Yep, that was my January. And now I’m 7 days into February and headed down the same road. So . . . when I got up this morning, I decided to take a U-Turn and the first thing I grabbed was my bible and my bible study. I opened up the scriptures and here’s the verse that brought me to my knees.
“Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear.” Isaiah 65:24.
Think about that for a moment – the God of the Universe, who spoke everything into being, knows the number of hairs on my head, who knows me by NAME wants to spend time with me? He’ll answer even before I call, while I’m still speaking -He will hear? The answer is “yes”.
And I’m cancelling on Him? Am I insane? (Don’t answer that!) Of course, God is all knowing, and He already knows what’s on our hearts . . . but one thing about God is that He is relational to the core! He wants to be engaged in conversation – a 2 way conversation with us. I believe prayer is more about orienting ourselves to our Father – daily – to help us become more sensitive to His voice.
As I think back over this last month, it occurs to me that we’ve spent a great amount of time with a lot of artists. Brandon Heath was here the beginning of the year, Matthew West came a couple of weeks later, Chris Tomlin was here last week, and Mark Schultz will be here on Thursday. All of these guys are great, and I love them all as my brothers. They’re fun, engaging, encouraging, and bring me new insights and wisdom. I wouldn’t trade a minute of the time that I’ve had with any of them. Nor would I have considered for a nano second cancelling our time together. Now while my job (and it’s only my job) that affords me the blessing of spending time with these guys . . . . you have people like this in your life as well. There are friends, family, and co-workers that you’d never dream of cancelling a lunch with or time spent together.
But isn’t that what we end up doing with God?
Oh, God forgive me . . . once again . . . for allowing everybody and everything to come before You. Forgive me for letting the calendar dictate my quiet time with You. Of everyone that I should NEVER cancel with, it is YOU!